We all know that moment, when everything around us seems to be falling apart. As the days turn into weeks, one thing after another unravels & obstacles try to block the way of hope & vision. As the trials pile up, your flesh can’t help but to want to doubt, worry & question God. A Christ follower knows that when these feelings arise, the Spirit that is willing will intercede & remind us of God’s faithfulness while bringing back to remembrance the word of the Almighty. The Spirit is quick to remind us that everything we are facing will reveal God’s glory in the end. The Spirit will quickly remind us that it is an HONOR to suffer as a Christian & we will be reminded that the present suffering is building character, endurance & hope. The Spirit reminds us that this present suffering is nothing compared to the glory that is to be revealed to us. The word of God abides in our heart & because of that, NO obstacles & no suffering can lead to the outcome of giving up. Not because God owes us anything, not because we mis quote scripture to fit our needs & our mystical view of God & not because we deserve anything. We do not give up because we remain in prayer without ceasing & we do not give up because we anticipate God getting glory from every area of our life.
Many who know me & my family know the situation with both my health & my husbands disease. We have been very open about sharing our testimony with others because we see God’s hand in everything He allows in our life. A little over two years ago I was in terrible shape with my kidney. The infections I was getting in my kidney & bladder were at one point a monthly event. Hospitals became my second home. After one hospital stay back in October 2012, a sister of mine recommended that I start a herbal supplement to help with my condition. I was extremely skeptical, but I decided to try anything at this point. After a month on the new regimen I saw great results. I was urinating frequently (something that was very difficult for me to do with retention), I was seeing infections less & the swelling in my body dropped within weeks. I praise God for allowing ministry to have brought in the finances I needed at the time (with concerns I was having to bring in finances, album sales, etc.) that allowed me to remain on herbalife for 18 months. It changed my life & helped me so much.
When the finances began to run out almost two years later, I was forced to go back on prescription medication & daily antibiotics. After just two months being back on meds, I saw the negative results. I felt worse on the medication, I was extremely tired all the time, I gained almost 25 lbs (after loosing 35), I felt more pain in my body & I was moody. Being back on the meds also caused a miscarriage which has been really painful for me. With my health feeling back at its worth, we also found out that my husband needs a second surgery this time in his spine (the first surgery was in his brain). With the stress of my health & now my husbands, we began seeing the trials pile up. The physical, emotional & mental pain has been so great & many times screams out that we need to give up, BUT how awkward is that when we stare doubt in the face & say NO, we will never give up. Loosing the baby has been such a difficult time. We hardly talk about it and no one really knew, but that event in our life has caused great pain. So many times I began to blame myself for taking medicine & for having such an unreliable body, but then I was quickly reminded that even in the midst of great suffering & pain, I must remember God & His faithfulness to us, even when we are so faithless.
Everyone is different & we all deal with mourning differently. Some of us throw in the towel and simply give up on believing in the unseen, while others find the strength to keep holding on, even if it is barely touching the hem of his garment.
Though greatly discouraged & deeply burdened, I am praying daily for God’s word that abides in my heart to be brought into remembrance every time my flesh tells me to simply give up.
A season of suffering that seems like it is never ending, is NOTHING compared to God’s glory that WILL be revealed.
My main focus cannot be constantly praying for the season to end, because if it is God’s will for us to suffer until death then He will give us the strength to endure & He will walk with us through the storm. Look at the disciples, all but one was martyred and suffered until death. So those who tell you that it isn’t God’s will to suffer, really have not studied the lives of the many who suffered until death. Many around the world are suffering and will suffer until they take their last breath & still they do not give up because their eyes are on the eternal perspective, not this world & their current suffering.
I want to encourage those suffering for so long that cannot even remember when they did not feel such pain, DON’T GIVE UP!! Let the gospel of Christ be your hope, be your daily bread. When others try to tell you that you should “claim” your healing, or “claim” your deliverance…. Remember that the only thing you need to claim is having faith that God is sovereign, God is eternal & God will walk with you. It is better to be in the house of mourning, as God draws so close to the broken!!
YES, God is ALL powerful & able to remove our pain & suffering, BUT He allows it for the building up of His people & He wants us to believe that even in the midst of the worst suffering, His glory will be revealed which means, the suffering will turn to joy in His time!!!
Praise God that after the loss of our baby, the medications that have destroyed my body and a 25lb weight gain, I am going back to trusting God to meet my needs & have stopped ALL prescription medicine. I am going to be taking the herbalife again & trusting God to see me through.
My husband has his neurosurgery appt end of March, and we are also trusting God to walk with us in the midst of whatever comes.
God is with us !! God is with you… So do not give up!!